The girl who loves the shadow...

The girl who loves the shadow,
The shadow of the tree she appertains to,
The advocacy that has been the crescendo to aggrandize her small world,
Shadow she idolizes so much not for it's grandeur but for being the amateur in a lone world of hers,
Moments that glistened her childhood memories forming the chunk of the alcove in her life,
She learnt to love the imperfection in the perfection under the amenity of the shadow.


The almanac flipped through and the girl of yesterday turned into a lady of the morrow,
The world was a bit blunt and ruthless to her for they blamed her to be the overshadowed by the shadow,
She was persuaded to ponder if she was victimised and her talent been compared to the mights of the tree,
Worldly premises made her acrid and unfortunately apathic too,
The girl who once loved the shadow,no longer played under it's roof,
The girl was no longer the girl she was,she was no a lady but too aloof!


The girl strived hard to make her own destiny,
The destiny she felt fell crashed under the widespread of the tree,
She managed to rebel,but lacked finesse and pragmatism,
The falls were tougher than those she perceived,
Until one day that she was struck with a cadence,
An Apostle revived her wounds and made her to ambit for the moments she treasured in her life,
She kept restrospecting for days and months but could not gather anything beyond the wonderful moments that she owed to the shadow,
Bolted was she to acknowledge and accept,but the apostle was her own soul who still loved the tree and the shadow.


The girl transformed into a women in no time,
May not be called an amazon exactly but certainly rid of the baggage in her almira,
She realized how lucky she was to be associated with the tree and the shadow,
The journey there forth was easier though not a smooth ride,
But,atleast she was n't running behind illusions,
Her goals were set and she was focused,
This time she din't chase the shadow,she borrowed it's company forever.


The year ahead is her year,the year in which her search for identity will reach it's destination,
The search and effort that would make the tree and the shadow proud of her,
The shadow not the sign of her,rather she being the reason of existence for the shadow,
The girl is just one like us,
The new year is just a platform for her aspirations to set free,
She might fall,she might manage to stand in struggle,the strength shall still remain to be her shadow.

TFC

Ma famille!

"They tell me that I look like her!"

" I wish I had those blue eyes!"

Aie & me.

Baba & me.

father's day: no, a lifetime of an achievement to have you dad!

its difficult to essay my love,gratitude,respect,affinity and affection for my "baba" in a space as narrow as this blog and it becomes absolutely tougher to express all that in a day!

its a long and wonderful journey and a relationship that i share with him is treasurable.its rare but i feel easy to connect with him and discuss with him any issue on this plannet of earth.

agreed,i dont look like him,i aslo dont have his subtle blue eyes.
but,i pray every day that if i have to inherit some aspect of him,it should be his virtue.his extremely humananitarian attitude and modesty have been instrumental in making him a legend in his own field of work.so,indeed its a privilege and great honour to be his daughter.

perhaps,i wish to give him bigger joy when someday like him i shall receive a lifetime achievement award for my field of expertise,in a very filmy way i desire to get the award from his hands.this would make me more responsible towards the work that i would do after that.

this very thought makes me very emotional.i simply adore my father way beyond limits.
yes,i may not say this to him but i have given him pain when i fell down,everytime that i said i am frustrated with my life and i just want to surrender to something.

at all occasions like these,he has been the one who gave me the desire to develop my wings and to fly.he has been an inspiration and endless source of energy to me.

if i was to relate to someone here,i would mention that though william kane was my heartthrob but abel rosnoviki remains to be epitomy of my father (kane and abel,jef archer series) struggling every bit for existence and so that sanity and development prevails.

i m not as ravishing as florentyne,but yes i love my father very much.
i owe a lot to him and there is plenty that i have to learn from fighting with my intellectual restarints against his ocean of intelligence.:)))

TFC

a page 3 week!

At times, you struggle to get something and you get closer to the goal but dont get it in real. i m sure that it happens to all of us in various stages of life.
but as they say in hindi "bhagwan jab deta hai to chappar fadke deta hai", i m blogging about a week in my life that proves the saying right.

But,last whole week, commencing from 19th may to 26th may 2007 has been full of surprises and thankfully all pleasant ones.
19th, (thats last saturday) was my birthday and i spent it in the most adventurous manner ever (but, more on the details next year ).all i can disclose is that i had one of the most wonderful times of my life with someone who is special and vital to me for the rest of my life.

The week moved on with a very hectic sunday (without the sun around it was almost pathetic, but had to put up with the pains with a smile so that work was done) at the college progressing with work packed weekdays.
and then ....arrived 23rd may, 2007, it was my coousin's birthday and like any other day i wished and the day moved very normally until my cell phone rang at around 6.0-6.15,my collegue maneesha was on the line wishing me congratulations.

I was wondering why,unable to grasp the context and stupidly asked her what was the reason for the wishes.
she replied, 'manasi,you have passed your first sem (m.arch) with flying colours and not just that you are amongst the top 2 in the university!" I was stunned and paused until i gulped down the news through my glottis.though i inquired about the rest and congratulated her as well for she was one of the three who had secured first class.

I was very happy and full of emotions.i gushed towards my father and hugged him (something i usually dont).
my eyes went moist and so did his.i am glad that after a long time i saw a smile of pride onto his face because of what i had done.
Thankful to god for helping me get here.


I am slowly realizing that the journey ahead is not going to be very easy, it is going to be difficult since i am now loaded with higher level and intensity of expectations and hence responsibilities.

I saw the attitudinal change in people instantly. i wont mention their names but would say one thing for sure that those people who do not leave you when you want them to leave during your tough slots are the true friends, the rest are fame mongers. i m lucky enough to have 2 such people after my parents who have stood the test of time and have been there in my thin, if not the thick to encourage and motivate me.

And last but not the least the most touching moments for me was the midmorning call that i received only to realize that i would be wanted even i am not successful for i shall be wanted for the person that i m.Guess that if there is success in life it is only if one wins the love and affection of people that one cares for.and if at all there is an achievement to be proud of then its the trust, belief and acceptance from the people you love so much.
I shall always treasure these achievements as trophies, as they are some medals that one begets and they never perish with time.you never loose such achievements to materialism and worldly transitions of concepts.
This might be very much a controversial part of the blog, but those who agree please comment and make my day!
TFC

EPICONS: the orchid ecotel, mumbai.

the lone man on the deligate's card seemed to amuse maneesha!

=>the guinea pigs and the slaughterer <=

all those who were physically present ar the seminar!

the 23rd march 2007!

for the presentation sake:
au mileu de haute temps discussion!

madame maneesha sharma and prachi

the married managers work more!

ar.gauri and i!

the future P.M.Cs for siemens, L& T and hindustan cons.

work in the comp lab: courtesy AOA, rachana sansad.

the closing note of the informal disscussion :
ar.nilesh, ar.angir and ar.gauri (please find someone for them, they are absolutely single)
with ar.tapasya.

a cactus at 15!

somethings never change, my friend remarked and i nodded in agreement. during childhood or should i say the threshold of sweet 16, girls mostly think and fantacize about their love life but envisage their "real" crushes from "reel" industry.there were days when i did that too, who acn forget the craze and madness that i was mesmerized with when i saw salman khan in HAHK or akshay kumar in MKTA, man it was awesome!days of mythicism and visualisation of a fictitious "prem" who could dance, sing and look as charminga as salman!

those were the days, of shear madness and chasing dreams.

so if some think i m little too matured at my age, well now they know how appearnces are deceptive!

anyway, coming back to my friend, she was at my place after a long time and we chatted about our first crushes, the first pic with the mystery man blah blah! got back pinks in my heart until she read me this patch from her scrap book: it left me blue!( that i had filled only to laugh my wits out now). and, to my surprise i have not changed my opinions on some issues,like men, love and an ideal partner! (though i disagree on somethings the subtlitity and sanity that i had still persists). i mean i am glad that if i was a thorn then, i have become a cactus now, so snobbishness multiplied (god damn i still dont know my tables right,how much should it be?) the scarp entry is as follows:
(statutory warning: the below given matter is strictly meant for futuristic and progressive ammendements and with malice to none intended).

1.intelligent and confident, must give my dad a tough fight at that!
2. simple, and someone who would be genuine.( may be this i must have written as an effect of watching aweful movies like janam samjha karo)
3.should have great eyes, somewhere i can get lost in, searching and attaining what i cant get from strangers.
(should have blue eyes like my dad)
4.someone who is determined and would stand by me: great friendship is what i want.
5. accepting me as i m.
6.preferably a doctor.( i was pretty much in love with my family doctor, so i always loved doctors)
7.who can take care of my snobbishness and correct me when i go wrong.
8. ambitious and very dashing.
9.utterly romantic!

well, if i write all that the scrap book said, i am sure the person described might start sounding like richard gere or george clooney! but, i am quite astonished that i had written i like doctors only: i dont see any problem with engineers as well (preferably some coder)!hmm, enough guidelines for a suitable bachelor in the corporate industry! today, i agree with the points 1,2 (blue eyes are unique and hence consideration comes in, browm or hazel would do!),3,4,5, 9 and 8!
as far as the clause on snobbishness goes, its no more a criterion, its a necessity and absolutley mandatory!
:)))))).

thanx to my friend, i could rethink on such things,,,,,,!!!!!

TFC

Ronu & I...

All along these 23 odd years i silently wished for a sibling of my own.down the memory lane, i dont recollect many instances when i could enjoy a fight or defend my kid bro or sis as an elder sis or otherwise.5 years back, rohan became a part of my life and i fel in love with him!hey,hey!,there is a slight addition to this piece of information, i still love him but as a kid bro!!!

once an archi always an archi, last minute detailing variations helped the BKC'S highly luxurious and demanding project of diamond merchants under wraps for 16 long years!

anyway, rohan and i always shared a special bond,i dont care if people care but i would go out of my way to win a bro like rohan.

rohan has been someone who would give me moral support and ask me advice when he required it (sadly, he never seeked one before accepting me as his sister,i am sure his life is all screwed up and not to forget completely under my rule now!).

as they say, if u dont have a foot you dont worry about a day you would seek a shoe...finally, i have found a brother for myself! all thanks to him thaough,its not easy to be associated with me in any way!

ronu,reminds me of Socrates story of success who's moral says the success of success is like the air one breathes and water gulped down,he is as precious to me and shall be thankful to him to be the "cause" of one good relationship i cherish! tough job for you ronu.

btw,ronu paid me a big moolah for this! just kidding,,, ronu has paid me handsomely for this blog but.... in terms of unexplainable and exclusive feedback of love,caring and kindness.

TFC

Just like that!

...... have been working on a long report assigned by the institute.i spent really a lot of my "precious" time on extrapolating a suitable subject for the cause.barely thought so much even before finalizing the final year thesis topic.well, as usual landed up selecting a topic that has no references in the Indian construction industry's context!

HPFRCCs is a very innovative technology and thanks to all the researchers i managed to read 1000 pages and gulp down a 100 in the nut between the ear drums.

actually, i stopped dreaming at night,,,,i hardly got to sleep for the past 2.5 weeks.the reason or should i say reasons were reasonably deserving.but it was a fun ride and enjoyed every bit of it,alas one more time it was confirmed that my inclinations are flexing towards research oriented fields of technology and sustainability.

after putting in a bit of effort and time, it was astonishing to see that i was not just the youngest but also the first one in the M.Arch{const. mgmt} batch to complete this assignment much before time.so, this sure calls for a self-acknowledgement,which signals me to work more!

i tend to be a little too harsh on myself when i am engrossed in my choice of work.but, had to and have to atleast till feb end!then i am going to treat myself luxuriously.............a trip to bangalore with ashu!!!!!lot of underlined intentions and aspirations from this trip....for all good reasons!

TFC